I’m In My 20’s And I Still Don’t Know What I Want (And That’s OK).

I Still Don't Know What I Want

I Still Don't Know What I WantI’m 22. I’m going into my final year of university this fall. Next May, I will graduate with a Bachelors Degree in Business Administration, with an Advanced Diploma in Marketing. I’ve spent countless hours on papers, projects, and lectures. I’ve probably spent an average of 8 hours per week commuting to campus. That’s over 800 hours spent just getting to school. And with all this time I’ve invested in my post-secondary education, I still don’t know what I want to pursue once I graduate.

I’ll backtrack a bit. In secondary school, I wasn’t into sports, or yearbook club, or any sort of extra-curricular activities. Granted, I wasn’t alone in this, but some kids at least had passions or things they enjoyed doing that they could carry on into their adult lives. I wasn’t really into sports, I didn’t care much about anything I was studying, and my interests consist(ed) of reading, listening to music, and watching romantic comedies. I once had the idea I’d like to pursue a career in marine biology, but then I spent the entire semester of Bio 11 asleep at my desk (how I managed a B grade is beyond me).

So when it came time to think of post-secondary education, I just applied to the first school I looked at and enrolled in an Arts and Sciences associate degree program. All I remember thinking is, “I still don’t know what I want to do, but I have to get a degree in something since no one else in my entire family has.” After my first year, I decided psychology and sociology wasn’t for me, so I decided to switch to the business program. There are a lot of potential careers to go after with a biz admin degree, and since I was still unsure of what career I wanted to pursue, this was a good safety net for me.

Over the next 3 1/2 years I basically coasted through university. I’m one of those students that can put in the bare minimum of work and still get pretty good results. I’ve always wondered what would happen if I put solid effort and drive into myself and school, but since I didn’t have a specific goal in mind, I figured it didn’t matter yet. It’s kind of sad, but I tended to think of myself as an average person: no remarkable talents, no unique passions, nothing that really set me apart from other people. I always knew I was intelligent, but I lacked motivation to let myself shine. I guess this is part of growing up, because since arriving in my 20’s I have started to develop more and see myself as a unique, thoughtful individual with my own set of interests, passions, and ideas.

But guess what: I STILL don’t know what I want to do!

The future is uncertain, but that’s the beauty of it! And the best part is I’m not worried about it anymore. Life barely begins in your early 20’s, and what most people in my position need to realize is that you don’t have to have it all figured out right away. It’s the experiences you have along the way that help you learn who you are and what you are passionate about. Eye-opening moments will only happen if you take risks; for example, I took a risk and decided to spend a semester abroad in England. I met many people, went to some amazing places, and discovered how much bigger the world is.

I never expected to fall in love with a place as much as I did with London, and because I took that risk I now know that London is a place I would eventually like to call home, at least for a while. So, finally, I have a goal and something to pursue; how much I’ve grown since three years ago! I’ve already taken a step forward in reaching this goal by getting an internship at Belief Trumps Talent, which, in two short weeks, has already taught me so much about being motivated and chasing your dreams.

It’s OK not to know.

What I’ve realized and learned over the years is that by actually living your life and enjoying it rather than worrying that you might end up a jobless graduate, you actually discover what your true passions are and begin to be happy rather than day dreaming about what could be. I’ve come to learn that it’s perfectly OK that I still don’t know what I want, as long as I believe in myself.

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